难过了

难过了，不要告诉别人，别人永远都不可能明白在你的立场上的感受。
难过了，静静的蹲下来抱着自己，让眼泪尽情的洒落。
难过了，拿着镜子看看此刻的自己，让真实浮现眼前。
难过了，默默的将自己隐藏起来，让空虚掩盖一切。
难过了，闭眼倾听周围的声音，让自己沉浸在喧嚣中。
难过了，不必告诉别人，自己的悲伤为何要别人也承担呢。
难过了，可以假装快乐，和别人一起兴奋时就能遗忘了自己。
难过了，仍然安慰别的伤心者，你会发现自己也在受益，当局者迷而已。
难过了，听音乐，就让音乐把它带走。

有谁不曾难过，

有谁还会记得，

过去的不再重来，

又何必去苦想？

忘掉……

用微笑渲泄悲伤

I'm fine

To someone, yea, it's u... this time u didnt 对号入座, Im saying u~!

Quite a long time we never connect, I knew u're angry and dislike. I can feel from ur action. I've so much to tell u...

I was so hurt for last time, cause u never trust me, do u think that I will simply talk this to someone? I know the words are no nice at all, do u think I dont scare u will angry or dont like? because I treat u true from my deep heart, that's why I told u that... but what's the respond u gave it to me? u dont trust me and push it to me! I was so hurt seriously, as a true friend. but it's PASSED. Whatever it become, I also dont want to talk about it again... cause it's not a happy or sweet memories, I dont want to remember it.

And I just wanna mention something, now I only know all of the world, all my friends, ur friends, even my family... ALL also thinking that I'm still loving u. I dont know what to say... may be u r thinking of it too... because they think that a couple can't be friend after broke? they don't believe I'm really treat u as a best friend? somebody said I treat u too good if as a friend, but they dont know me, I'm treating all my true friends same... I just dont want they misunderstand.

If I'm still loving u, then I wont act ur GF to lie somebody last time, I hope u will understand... Im really care u as a bro, a true friend from my heart... I dont know u do or not... may be u will feeling uncomfortable... but I never think that I will lost u this friend, or this is what u want?

Our friendship just END like this? u dont want me already? I was missing u seriously... I miss you dude. May be you think that u have me as friend or not also nothing to be different... that's why u can leave?

You've been forget our promise before, we used to promise each other whatever, no matter how... our friendship won't affect by somebody, something or else... but now we did it??? I know you don't need me anymore... but all of our things can't erase from my mind, you're so mean to me, you're one of my best friend, my bro who are so important to me. But now are you going to give me up? It's sad... ='(

It's not easy to have a friendship which can more than 5 years and still so close... and we are going to reach 7th years, I dont wanna just have a 7th years friendship with u.

The world may be gonna end soon, we are getting old too, the times are getting less and less... why should we still persistent? why we still care about the face problems? The friendship between u and me is that weak like this??? 我们之间的友情都比不上那么一小点的面子？

2012。我

差不多两个月没更新部落格了。

嗨，你还好么？

这是今年的第一个文章，

不想写得太长、太悲。

不想把它给灰了。

今年正式迈向二十的我。

今年已开始，桃花就不停的我。

是开心？还是？？？

新的一年里，就在这两个月。

人缘不错的我。

那个多变化的我。

很平安的平安夜

Last night was a very safety night. I went to INTI to attend an event before go to countdown. It's a performance to singing those X'mas song with live band. It's warm when listening to the songs. Until the end of the event, we light up the candle, to pray to the Lord. I really got pray to him:" Dear Lord, it's the first time I'm pray to you, I wish that I can let the things away from my heart, from my world, from my mind... I don't want to care about it again... I don't want to get hurt again... Please~ just a wish only, please... please let it go away~ I'm pray it very hard.

Do the Lord listen to me? Did he receive my wish? Will he approve my wish? I'm not greedy, just a wish only, that's all. The only one I'd pray for damn hard.

After the event, we went to so many places, meet up so many friends... until the end all gang up at the UPR... all at the same place... half of my classmates also at there... so ngam... haha~

I'm feeling good, because last night got people protecting me at there... feel warm... can't say so much dee, SECRET. haha~

When I was a kid

Alone sitting at a shopping centre at KL, with my damn tired body in a afternoon. And looking at those kids playing at there... How cute are them... When I was a kid like them, I don't know what am I doing too... haha~

Waiting for my sis coming to this world? or maybe fighting with my sis... When I was 2 or 3 years old like them.

And I don't know what should I doing for... Also don't need to worry about so much. Don't need to learn how to become so independent... Just do what am I happy for. Just cry out easily when I feel sad or angry. Don't need to act for so strong.

入世未深

身边可以真正信任的朋友真的一个都没有了吗？在这恐怖的世界，还会有谁可以当她的避风港？她很累了，她真的害怕了。她泪了。

有谁可以给她点勇气？她真的好害怕。是她小看了这世界，是她把身边的人看得太简单了。是她看东西看得简单，是她入世未深……

I am who I am

别说我变了，我还是那个我，只是你们没人可以看得懂真正的我而已。

别说我变了，我只是不再跟着你们的步伐在走，也不曾跟着。

我还是原来的我。 =)

我只想要多些个人的空间

I just need a place that can allow me to rest as well, don't need to 配合 others, can do what I want to do, don't need to consider about will affect other or not, don't need to care about other's feeling, don't need to think about whatever they like or don't! 自己想怎样就怎样！This few weeks, I'm damn miss the life when I'm stay at school hostel, even 宅了点，可是那时候的生活没必要配合着他人，拥有更多的个人空间。stay with a gang of friends is not bad, but i prefer stay alone is more better, at least i dont need to care about others feeling when im doing smth, even listen what type of songs also nobody complain... and I also can control my time as well, what time I wan to sleep also nobody comment...sleep early also nobody disturb... and the most important is wont late go into the class!!! after I move out from school hostel, always late to class, or even direct absent... ><"

I'm not blame that I absent cause of who, but I just realise that before when I'm still stay at school hostel, I never skip class except I'm sick till very bad.

But what to do then? that's my choice, cant regret rite? and can't tell anyone beside me, cause it's dangerous, all also relate to them...