2011/03/31

难过了不让别人知道

难过了,戴上耳机,漫步在小路上、­
难过了,吃自己喜欢的东西。

难过了,静静的蹲下来抱着自己,让眼泪尽情的洒落­

难过了,拿着镜子看看此刻的自己,让真实浮现眼前­
难过了,默默的将自己隐藏起来,让空虚掩盖一切­
难过了,闭眼倾听周围的声音,让自己沉浸在喧嚣中­
难过了,不必告诉别人,自己的悲伤为何要别人也承担呢­
难过了,可以假装快乐,和别人一起兴奋时就能遗忘了自己­
难过了,仍然安慰别的伤心者,你会发现自己也在受益,当局者迷而已

有谁不曾难过 ­
有谁还会记得 ­
过去的不再从来 ­
又何必去苦想 ­
忘掉… ­

用微笑渲泄悲伤

难过没什么大不了,重要的是以后要活得好。­
不再遇到难事就向人倾吐心声,自己默默承受就好。­
以后就这样生活。。。。。。。。。­
难过了、不用让别人知道、因为、不会有人在乎......

好想告诉他: 我想你了, 我有好多的事想要告诉你, 我的心和脑快要爆炸了, 就快要承受不住了。我真的好烦……所有的委屈就只能往肚子里塞。每一天都非常努力地笑着…笑得有点辛苦、笑得好痛…所有的烦恼都无处可诉,也解决不了,每一天都在一点一点的累积着,直到把我淹没至窒息为止。也不敢告诉你…有点需要你。我……真的好累。
:'(

2011/03/28

至Ms.P


Reply to my lovely Ms.P

刚刚当她看到那个post的时候,她哭了……
其实不是她不信任你,
其实不是她已不爱你,
其实不是她已讨厌你,
其实不是她不想告诉你,
只是……她变了~

她变得沉默了,
她变得不爱闹了,
她变得不爱解释了,
她变得不太爱说话了,
她变得不懂如何去表达,
她变得不像她了,
她变得爱把自己给关起来,
不让任何人进入她的世界了,
她变得她的世界里只有她自己,
她变得她的事只有她自己最清楚,
任何人都理解不了的她……
也是她自己最讨厌的自己。

那是因为她的身边发生了好多好多的事,
她接受不了的事,可是她也得硬着头皮去独自面对。
因为她的压力大到没感觉了,
因为有好多好多的事烦着她,
而她得天天醒来若无其事的继续假装,
因为她已少了一个依靠。
因为她得坚强,她得开心,
因为那是她曾经答应过身边所有人的承诺,
因为当她看到身边的人心疼她的心疼,
她会更难过……
所以她一直都在非常的努力着。
所以她只躲在她的世界里。
就只因为……她真的累了。

你的好意她当然知道,
她当然知道你会一直呆在她的身边,
她知道你不会离开她,
她知道你会当她的聆听者……
可是,不是她不信任你,
而是她不晓得要怎么说,怎么表达……
所以她保持沉默。

不是她不需要你,
而是她……真的不懂要怎麽样?
只有她自己知道有谁才可以把原来的她给换回来。
可是那真的会很难,
所以,希望你原谅她。
原谅她的emo,
原谅她的沉默,
原谅她的自闭,
原谅她的安静,
原谅她的所有。
因为你在她的心里还是一样很重要!

其实我不快乐

the songs sing by Linda Chung...same music but different lyrics...cantonese and mandarin style... i like the cantonese style than the mandarin...cause of the lyrics... meant to her =]

其实我不快乐

离别你不经异地 想工作暗天暗地
直到可困倦床睡 不挂念你
情愿我呼天叫地 总好过这麼顾忌
害怕走往日场地 倘碰著你会撑不起

和谁在一起都用来共你相比
就算了不起只可做到我知己
谁若寄望替代你最尾都要放弃 只能退避
和谁在一起很自然共你相比
就算游戏笑著也未快乐得起
难道我这麼寄望有天可失忆 找到转机

其实我很不快乐 想躲进暗黑街角
泪尽可痛快地流落 不知那日会对爱再有感觉

和谁在一起很自然共你相比
就算游戏笑著也未快乐得起
难道我这寄望有天可失忆
难道这份记念如像空气
欠缺就会死

我不快乐

九点半还在工作 咖啡店总是满座
人太多声音太多 擦肩掠过
你是你而我是我 走失了不知不觉
那条街还是一样 每次走过泪就掉落

我不要犯错 所以不会再联络
世界太完美 朋友总是那麼多
陪著我一直唱歌 叫我一定加倍好好生活
我不要犯错 所以才重新爱过
新来的人 我要甚麼就给甚麼
让我一直微笑 不好意思说 我不快乐

九点半还在工作 记忆裡还是留座
好让你心血来潮 那一个晚上再回来看看我

我不要犯错 所以不会再联络
世界太完美 朋友总是那麼多
陪著我一直唱歌 叫我一定加倍好好生活
我不要犯错 所以才重新爱过
新来的人 我要甚麼就给甚麼
让我一直微笑 不好意思说
其实我在喧闹人群之中
还是会寂寞

2011/03/22

我累了,学坏可以吗?

我想做个坏孩子,那样就不用每天徉装着笑容,明明不快乐,还要笑嘻嘻着。
何时觉得自己变得安静,不爱说话了。面对一些事,却是无奈的面貌。
何时觉得自己是那么没用,面对自己不想做的事却还要去做、自己却无能为力。
何时觉得自己是那么没用,曾想改变身边的一切但自己不得不向社会的残酷现实低头。不得不向别人低头。
何时觉得自己变得 对待身边一切事情不在乎了,是因为自己已无力在乎。
何时觉得自己让自己活的那么辛苦,那么堕落。
别人的种种眼光。是好是坏、自己都分不清楚。

青春的阳光不再明媚,只因自己无力改变。
曾想改变自己这无谓的生活、曾想曾想。。。但是却被身边一切残酷的现实给摧残了。
自己内心所受的伤、别人永远也无法懂。

即使自己表面露得多坚强、笑的多开朗,装做多不在乎。但是在夜里、自己却掉下了多少眼泪。
曾想我们变叛逆,但是却一次次想到身边的人。觉得变坏对得起他们吗?
我想做个坏孩子,今天复制昨天,不愿再勉强自己。
我想做个坏孩子,这样谈何容易?要多大的勇气?可现实说明我多无能多胆小。
本想自己还算是过的好了,但是措手不及的伤害又一次次突袭,让你一次一次痛的快窒息。
曾想我也能像别人生活得那么快乐,曾想让自己变得快乐一点,但是事与愿违。
让你一次次万般失望,也许这就是命运在捉弄。
不要以为我很坚强,很快乐。如今淡漠只是武装自己不受伤。
我不喜欢别人把我看的脆弱,也不喜欢别人以为我很不快乐。

坏孩子的天空到底是怎样的?堕落?迷茫?颓废?还是外人无法欣赏的美好?我向往着…
我怕自己变成坏孩子!我怕最爱我的你们会不再爱我,不要我,会离开我。
我害怕你们的离去,所以我没有变坏,而是尽力让自己变成你们期待的。
其实每个人都不是想学坏的、可是现实对我们太残酷了。
坏孩子?变成家人、朋友不喜欢的人?你们还会爱那个坏孩子吗?
越长大越孤单 越长大越不安
也不得不看梦想的翅膀被折断
也不得不收回曾经的话问自己:
青春就是这样吗?
自己的人生就是这样吗?
自己就这样认命吗?

其实我们本质并不坏,只是压力大了,难以承受,只是自己承受不了身边一些不好的事情。
一些不如意的事情,才会想要自己变坏,变叛逆、

如果我说 我累了'' 我可以变坏吗?'''
就这一秒钟'''
让我为自己的骄傲而活着!


[Copy from somewhere... meant it... so, May I?]

2011/03/20

"Say No to Sexual Crimes!!"


Today went to an event -- [Stop Sexual Crimes: Join the Walk!]
How perfect that it was going... Inti is the best! good job DBAD!!! wuhoo~~~
It's a very healthy event... It was showed out how our whole class student support! and how colourful for those banners which make by our classmates.
enjoy the pictures =)












2011/03/18

全世界的人都知道



在见到你关键的第一秒
爱的情愫开始发酵
小心翼翼 写给你的纸条
幸福画上星星记号

*你像一座孤傲的岛
有自己的城堡
我是上不了岸的潮
也只能将你围绕*

全世界的人都知道
一厢情愿是种烦恼
只要换你一次微笑
就算是做梦也会笑
全世界的人不知道
我不在乎付出多少
我想这就是幸福写照
任何人不能阻止我对你的好


The song is so sweet~ ^.^
and meant it too~

2011/03/17

放下烦脑

快乐其实很简单,
所谓练习微笑,不是机械地挪动你的面部表情,而是努力地改变你的心态,调节你的心情。
学会平静地接受现实,
学会对自己说声顺其自然,
学会坦然地面对厄运,
学会积极地看待人生,
学会凡事都往好处想。
这样,阳光就会流进心里来,驱走恐惧、驱走黑暗、驱走所有的阴霾。
快乐其实很简单,不要自己不快乐就可以了。

可是…我好像有点做不到……烦恼一直陪着我…它还真够义气,总是对我不离不弃… ><"

2011/03/16

放下压力



累与不累,取决于自己的心态。
心灵的房间,不打扫就会落满灰尘。
蒙尘的心,会变得灰色和迷茫。
我们每天都要经历很多事情,开心的,不开心的,都在心里安家落户。

心里的事情一多,就会变得杂乱无序,然后心也跟着乱起来。
有些痛苦的情绪和不愉快的记忆,如果充斥在心里,就会使人委靡不振。
所以,扫地除尘,能够使黯然的心变得亮堂。
把事情理清楚,才能告别烦乱。
把一些无谓的痛苦扔掉,快乐就有了更多更大空间。
紧紧抓住不快乐的理由,无视快乐的理由,就是你总是觉得难受的原因了。

2011/03/14

少了一个人


朋友聚会吵闹的快乐 在她们离开以后变稀薄
走路回家 回像山洞的窝 突然渴望有人 能来接我

泡著热水在浴室赖著 思念却也被滚烫冒烟了
最后的简讯 看到能背了 多久没有再联络 一想还是痛
少了一个人宠爱我
朋友的爱 成分就是不同
最难过 是笑著面对被羡慕自由
练很久的成熟 也快遮掩不住 寂寞


妈妈在电话裏挂念我 上次欲言又止她还记得
喜欢装没事 其实最累了 但我清楚很多事 哭了也没用

少了一个人拥抱我那种拥抱 能够忘了所有
两个人 就算下雪后赤脚逆著风
也不觉得冰冻 还笑得比阳光 炽热

少了一个人懂得我能够体会 我倔强又脆弱
不记仇 温柔原谅我情绪太波动
用泪光舍不得 融化我累积的 寂寞


很固执 无条件爱我从来没变过
在大吵的时候 会抱著我 沉默 不动

A song from S.H.E~


She's very tired, she don't know when will it finish... She tired of everything, but she knows that she need to be strong and tough, even it's so hard, but she'd tried her best already... she don't knows she can tahan until how... may be until the max which she can't reach... but the max is soon, she's feeling now... because she's very tired already... on the road... the lonely road...
No one can really know and understand her... yea, may be only is she don't want to wake up, not she don't want, because she can't do it... That's why so many people suicide in this world.

Everyday she need to act so strong and smile to others... she needs a hand, but she can't find it, cause there's no one really understand and know her well...

She needs a person who know her well, understand her...
She needs a person who can protect her heart...
She needs a person who will ... ...
She's really and very tired enough~ :')

2011/03/13

拥抱


很喜欢拥抱,喜欢与心爱的人深情相拥的感觉,什么也不说,什么也不做,就只是静静地拥抱,久久不要分开,似乎只有这样,才能体会与心爱的人真正溶为一体的真实感。在那一刻,相信时间也会为我们停止的……­

一直以来都觉得,拥抱,较之亲吻更加真实、温馨,那个可以让你依靠的胸膛一定是很温暖的,肩膀也一定很坚实。不然为什么大家在伤心哭泣的时候,总想找个肩膀来依靠呢,我想,其实更多地是想要一个拥抱吧­ 拥抱的时候,内心会溢满一种叫甜蜜的情愫,拥抱的感觉是真实和安全的,因为拥抱是有温度的,拥抱是有声音的……­
拥抱,是无声的语言,拥抱,是最简单的接受与认可……­­
拥抱的时候,彼此是被需要的,被别人需要是时候,是一个人最有价值的时候……

你曾经说过,好想累的时候能抱着我,其实,我又何尝不想呢,累的时候,好想你能在身边,无需太多言语,只要一个拥抱,再苦再累都值得……­­

也好想,能够在你累的时候,从身后环住你的腰,把脸轻轻在你的后背,静静地,无需语言,用心灵对话,倾听彼此内心的声音……

不能守在你的身边,不能在你伤心难过的时候给你安慰;不能在你累的时候给你拥抱;更看不到你面对这么多不可能时的无奈与心酸……­ ­

可是,我是可以体会你的心情的,因为,在你倍受思念痛苦的同时,我和你是一样的,可是我们别无选择……­­

可是,你怎么不在我身边,电话再甜美,再安慰,也不足以应付不能拥抱你的遥远。­­  拥抱,真得这么遥不可及吗?­­我会用我的双臂,在你看到我的第一眼时拥
你入怀。­­好想好想你,好想好想累的时候能抱抱你……

Copy from another site... nice =)

2011/03/09

You haven't seen the last of me

You haven't seen the Last of Me...

Feeeling broken
Barely holding on
But just there's something so strong
Somewhere inside me.
And I am down,but I'll get up again.
Don't count me out just yet

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed right past the point of breaking.
But I can take it.
I'll be backBack on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me.

They can
Say that
I won't stay around
I gonne stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me.You don't know me,you don't know who I am.
Don't count me out so fast

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed right past the point of breaking.
But I can take it.
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from overYou haven't seen the last of me

There will be no better
This is not the end
I'm better now
And I'll be standing on top again.
Times are hard but
I was built tough.
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of.
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed right past the point of breaking.
But I can take it.
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
No,no,I'm going nowhere
I'm staying right here
Oh,no you won't see my fear
I'm not kidding around
Can't stop meCan't stop me
You haven't seen the last of me
Oh,no
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me
A nice song from the movie --> "Burlesque"
What a nice movie for this year...
And a lots of nice songs~
Especially this song "You haven't seen the last of me"
the lyrics is so meaningful too...
love it =)


My birthday party part 2~


8th of March... a day which i scare to go... because of some reason... those stupid promise... and the stupid... but I'm very happy that I've my 2nd family... which is my Pekaka's geng~ their are my housemates, classmates, my dearest friends, my family... and so meaningful to me in my heart, always raise me up, supporting each others, giving a lots of energy or power to me... and make me strong... don't know how to describe how important are them to me! when I'm feeling upset, crying, and emo... they always share out their shoulder for me no matter how...




Thanks to you all gave me a sweet 19th birthday =)


Thanks my best friends!



Thanks for the birthday cake


Blow the candles can gigit the candle up... ><"
Si gui Xinjie & You Xian take the cream "gor" my face... ><"




After lunch and the cake, we went to Tambun for our dinner with others classmates and another guy who's same birthday with me too... my classmate--> chin yik... both birthday on 8th of March... ^^
Thanks for you all gave me a wonderful birthday... Thanks a lots, love u all! muacks!

I'm really very appreciate you all... I swear! and Im very happy for today... just now afternoon Im really didn't black face, may be cause of I take off my fringe and my face no emotion, so yo guys think that Im beh syok or what... It's really, because Im really really very happy!



For the whole day my mind is repeat and repeat the conversation between a boy and a girl.

Girl: How do you want to celebrate your birthday?
Boy(shy) : This want also want to say out meh?
Girl: Just say it out lar... (the girl really don't know what the boy will say)
Boy: I just want you beside me to celebrate with me, what activities also never mind, just up to you... ..
Girl: ... ... ( the girl was shocked for the answer)

It's feel so 心酸, because that what the girl want too for her birthday... but now all were passed, no more and impossible! the dreams was broke! never and ever will come true... because the status between them are different already, no more meaning to her again... even they can celebrate together, but the meaning for her is different... That's why She can't really happy, she lost her smile... the smile from heart...for 2 months ago... =)
May be she's very happy, but not the max... cause there's feel like somethings lost... somewhere is so empty or blank to her. =)

My birthday party part 1~

Last saturday, my friends called me out for celebrated Xuan Jun and mine birthday~ Happy birthday to both! We went to Amp-Square at Sunway there... have a nice "concert" at there~ wahaha~ after that we go to the McD to sing b'day song with a cake. Thanks u guys gave me a nice b'day ya~ muackssS~

Shooting photos with my babe~

Thanks my dear friends and babe celebrated my birthday ~

Happy Birthday to both of us... XD (4th & 8th)

Thanks guys ^^