2012。我

差不多两个月没更新部落格了。

嗨，你还好么？

这是今年的第一个文章，

不想写得太长、太悲。

不想把它给灰了。

今年正式迈向二十的我。

今年已开始，桃花就不停的我。

是开心？还是？？？

新的一年里，就在这两个月。

人缘不错的我。

那个多变化的我。

很平安的平安夜

Last night was a very safety night. I went to INTI to attend an event before go to countdown. It's a performance to singing those X'mas song with live band. It's warm when listening to the songs. Until the end of the event, we light up the candle, to pray to the Lord. I really got pray to him:" Dear Lord, it's the first time I'm pray to you, I wish that I can let the things away from my heart, from my world, from my mind... I don't want to care about it again... I don't want to get hurt again... Please~ just a wish only, please... please let it go away~ I'm pray it very hard.

Do the Lord listen to me? Did he receive my wish? Will he approve my wish? I'm not greedy, just a wish only, that's all. The only one I'd pray for damn hard.

After the event, we went to so many places, meet up so many friends... until the end all gang up at the UPR... all at the same place... half of my classmates also at there... so ngam... haha~

I'm feeling good, because last night got people protecting me at there... feel warm... can't say so much dee, SECRET. haha~

When I was a kid

Alone sitting at a shopping centre at KL, with my damn tired body in a afternoon. And looking at those kids playing at there... How cute are them... When I was a kid like them, I don't know what am I doing too... haha~

Waiting for my sis coming to this world? or maybe fighting with my sis... When I was 2 or 3 years old like them.

And I don't know what should I doing for... Also don't need to worry about so much. Don't need to learn how to become so independent... Just do what am I happy for. Just cry out easily when I feel sad or angry. Don't need to act for so strong.

入世未深

身边可以真正信任的朋友真的一个都没有了吗？在这恐怖的世界，还会有谁可以当她的避风港？她很累了，她真的害怕了。她泪了。

有谁可以给她点勇气？她真的好害怕。是她小看了这世界，是她把身边的人看得太简单了。是她看东西看得简单，是她入世未深……

I am who I am

别说我变了，我还是那个我，只是你们没人可以看得懂真正的我而已。

别说我变了，我只是不再跟着你们的步伐在走，也不曾跟着。

我还是原来的我。 =)

我只想要多些个人的空间

I just need a place that can allow me to rest as well, don't need to 配合 others, can do what I want to do, don't need to consider about will affect other or not, don't need to care about other's feeling, don't need to think about whatever they like or don't! 自己想怎样就怎样！This few weeks, I'm damn miss the life when I'm stay at school hostel, even 宅了点，可是那时候的生活没必要配合着他人，拥有更多的个人空间。stay with a gang of friends is not bad, but i prefer stay alone is more better, at least i dont need to care about others feeling when im doing smth, even listen what type of songs also nobody complain... and I also can control my time as well, what time I wan to sleep also nobody comment...sleep early also nobody disturb... and the most important is wont late go into the class!!! after I move out from school hostel, always late to class, or even direct absent... ><"

I'm not blame that I absent cause of who, but I just realise that before when I'm still stay at school hostel, I never skip class except I'm sick till very bad.

But what to do then? that's my choice, cant regret rite? and can't tell anyone beside me, cause it's dangerous, all also relate to them...

原谅你身边的贱人

以前听朋友说过，有一个人嘴巴很贱。其实吧，应该原谅它。

一个人极度自卑的时候，它就爱把自己弄的很强势，这种强势和大小姐脾气不一样。它会把人家都贬的很低，自己却很清高。它会认为自己一切都很对别人都错。它会对自己没有的东西产生恨，因而把它们都销毁。

它们很自卑，让自己的一切都那么符合城里人的品味。

所有都是因为自卑。你身边也有这种人吧，请原谅它们，它们只是太自卑。

Red VS Yellow

以前她的心是红色的

经过了一阵子

那红色在她心中也渐渐的有点淡了

直到她遇到了黄色

她心的颜色也渐渐变成了橘色

当她犹豫着是否要慢慢转成黄色

她心里的红色却突然地又出现

而且越来越强烈

让她对黄色停止了那一步

不再往前

因为她发现红色才是她最爱的颜色

无论那黄色有多么的美好、多么的灿烂！但它还是代替不了她心里真正的红色。