2011/02/28
不管成功与否至少曾经美丽
2011/02/25
烟花的生命
那天,有个人告诉我说:“要是当初她对我就像你对他酱,那该有多好?我多么希望也会有个我爱的人也对我那么的痴心,那么爱我、在乎我……我好羡慕你的他,有一人可以对他那么的傻……”
朋友,原本应该是我在安慰你的吧?怎么反倒过来了呢?可能就只是你还没遇到吧?她说:“你会找到一个比我对你更好的人。”那就已经代表她不会再对你好了,懂吗?换成是我的话,我会回他:“当然我会遇到比你对我更好更爱我的人,可是我不懂我还会不会再对他那么好了……”
就像烟花,它的生命虽短,可是它曾经为它自己努力的绽放那最美丽的一面,而它也觉得死而无憾了。因为它至少曾经努力过,不觉得后悔,那就够了。懂吗?
2011/02/24
简单。好难
今早发了个梦,梦里的她躺在他的肩膀上。那感觉非常的实在……仿佛所有的压力都消失了,所有的烦恼都没了,她的心感到非常的安心、舒服、脑袋所有的事情顿时停了下来……感觉就像天塌下来也无所谓似的~那感觉很夸张!也很强烈……她见识过的。真的好夸张、那心情顿时稳定了下来。
突然间被某人从睡梦中给叫醒,就像狠狠地被人刮醒……当她刚醒来的时候,还以为刚才的梦境是真的,以为所有的感觉都回来了。以为终于可以休息了、以为终于可以好好的睡一觉了、以为……
在那一刹那,她还在分不清刚刚那到底是梦境还是现实生活。当她发觉一切都是空幻与梦境的时候,她再一次崩溃了。她真的很累、撑得好辛苦……她真的无药可救了!
那天她的肚子又痛了,痛到醒了起来,她好想好想非常想打通电话给他,可是到最后她克制住了她自己,因为她知道现在他们的身份不同了,她也没那种资格了……也只好让那疼痛折磨着她大半天,真得好辛苦。要是以前的话,只要听到他的声音,疼痛也会减少了点儿,至少还有他陪着。突然间,她竟然有种苯苯的想法,她想:要是如果痛到死掉,那该多好?所有的事情也不必再独自一个人面对,不必那么辛苦、不必感觉到疼痛、不必……她想:要是她就这样地消失了,他……算了,她只是仅想想而已。当然,现在的她不会那么的幼稚!不过未来的事没人会知道,不过她会支撑到她不能够再撑的那一天。
原本我还以为至少还有个最知心可以无话不谈的知己,以为可以放释的向他倾诉所有心事,就像以前那样……以为全世界的人都不懂我都没有关系,至少还有一个他……可是事情好像不是我想象的那样。而且还把事情搞得更砸了!我并没有那个意思在暗示他,故意说些难听的话给他听……可是他却误会了……我知道即使我再怎么解释都好,虽然口头上他没有误会,可是心里却始终坚持着自己的意见。所以我也不想再多作解释,沉默也许就是最好的答案。可能我不配拥有,可能原本我在他的心目中就是那么的邪恶,可能我在大家的心目中很不简单、很不单纯。
有很多很多事情,我也不想再多作解释了,我真的很累!要误会就误会去吧!我不想再那么介意了!因为你们根本都不了解我!就连他也一样……算了,反正没有人会真的理解!也没有人会相信我!算了吧~唉~~
我真的只想要简简单单,难道不可以吗?对你们来说,我就真的那么邪恶吗?
原来简单真的好难。
2011/02/23
至少平静
在你跌入人生谷底的时候,
你身旁所有的人都告诉你:
要坚强,而且要快乐。
坚强是绝对需要的,但是快乐?
在这种情形下,恐怕是太为难你了。
毕竟,谁能在跌得头破血流的时候还觉得高兴?
但是至少可以做到平静。
平静地看待这件事,
平静地把其他该处理的事处理好。
平静,没有快乐,也没有不快乐。
2011/02/22
人生道理
有一只小鸟飞去南方过冬。
天实在太冷了。它冻僵了,掉在一片田野上。
它躺在那儿时,一头母牛走过来在它身上拉了一堆屎。
冻僵的小鸟躺在粪堆里,开始感觉到了温暖。
牛粪确实使它暖和过来了。
它躺在温暖的牛粪中,异常高兴,并开始唱起歌来。
一只过路的猫听到鸟叫赶过来看个究竟。
顺着声音,它发现了牛粪下的小鸟,并迅速把它拖出来吃掉了。
它躺在那儿时,一头母牛走过来在它身上拉了一堆屎。
冻僵的小鸟躺在粪堆里,开始感觉到了温暖。
牛粪确实使它暖和过来了。
它躺在温暖的牛粪中,异常高兴,并开始唱起歌来。
一只过路的猫听到鸟叫赶过来看个究竟。
顺着声音,它发现了牛粪下的小鸟,并迅速把它拖出来吃掉了。
故事寓意:
(1)并不是每个在你身上拉屎的都是你的敌人。
(2)并不是每个把你拖出粪堆的都是你的朋友。
(3)当你深陷粪堆中的时候,最好闭上你的鸟嘴。
(1)并不是每个在你身上拉屎的都是你的敌人。
(2)并不是每个把你拖出粪堆的都是你的朋友。
(3)当你深陷粪堆中的时候,最好闭上你的鸟嘴。
学会沉默
你不想争辩,所以选择沉默。
本来就不是所有的人都得了解你,
因此你认为不必对全世界喊话。
却也有时候,你被最爱的人误解,
你难过到不想争辩,也只有选择沉默。
全世界都可以不懂你,但他应该懂,
若他竟然不能懂,还有什么话可说?
生命中往往有连舒伯特都无言以对的时刻,
毕竟不是所有的是非都能条列清楚,
甚至可能根本没有真正的是与非。
那么,不想说话,就不说吧,
在多说无益的时候,也许沉默就是最好的解释。

2011/02/21
She's improving...




Just come back from Nick's house with my babe, first time to take off my fringe and some curly hair, a new look for Janet~ haha! yea, Im know look more mature now, but I like it! so What?! I feel nice then no any problem already. Im trying to change myself now... improving myself... cause I've no good enough, no pretty enough no rational enough when facing some problems and no mature enough, so Im changing now...to become more good, get more 内涵, more mature, not only my look, with my mind too... Im trying everyday now...
Last week I went to secondary school with my old friends, then go visit my lovely teachers... all teacher are saying who had changed, or look not same like before, when my turn, teacher said: "Janet is never change, the hair, the body, the look......" sweat, may be I also let them "kek tiok", so I've the thinking to change my look... but for my attitude, not because of them, just because of myself.
Im felt that I need to improve my myself and my mind... become more mature, more rational when face on those stupid problems. Just like SY said, I need to improve my 内涵 also. No one is really good enough, everyone also need to improve too...
I need to improve what had failed for... why he/she leave me, why did he/she dont like or hate me... this's all I need to improve, I need to become more mature, more pretty than her, more good than others... I want others "跌破眼镜"on me, I want others feel regret how they thinking of me, I want others feel regret for left me before, I want others take back how they hate me or dont like me before!
So, she's trying to improve herself and days come and go... + U~
2011/02/19
A mountain is higher than a mountain
If you think that Im the person how are you thinking of, then just go ahead! I used to admit so many times that I dont like to explain so much and say so much, may be Im lazy, and I dont care others how they thinking of me, I'll just let them go and think what they like. I dont care!
It's more than hundred times that I said I dont like to say so much and explain so much... but IF u really come in front of me and direct to ask me, OF COURSE I'll tell you for all what you want to know about! Everytimes also like that, because you didn't come to ask me directly, then just keeping to yourself and think it with yourself, never ask the happen, only think by yourself, that's why there's so much misunderstand!!! After that act like nothing happened, and pretend to be so good with me again, then Im the one dont know what's wrong and what's going on when you beh syok and dont like me! Everytimes I also heard the things from others! why dont you just be more direct? Is it very hard like ask you go to jump into sea for you? Can die meh?!?! Im really hate the word of FAKE!!! I hate how do you pretend to me! Im very feel disappointed on you! Im really dont like to listen our things from others mouth... yea, I dont mind if you keep the things for yourself, but I mind that there's misunderstanding between us... May be you scare I'll angry or sad, but I'll feel more angry, sad and disappointed when Im know not from you! of course I'll angry or sad when you telling me, but I'll feel more happy than all feeling if you direct to tell in front of me what's wrong or what had I done bad to you... you just let me feeling that you are not respect me at all !
It's more than hundred times that I said I dont like to say so much and explain so much... but IF u really come in front of me and direct to ask me, OF COURSE I'll tell you for all what you want to know about! Everytimes also like that, because you didn't come to ask me directly, then just keeping to yourself and think it with yourself, never ask the happen, only think by yourself, that's why there's so much misunderstand!!! After that act like nothing happened, and pretend to be so good with me again, then Im the one dont know what's wrong and what's going on when you beh syok and dont like me! Everytimes I also heard the things from others! why dont you just be more direct? Is it very hard like ask you go to jump into sea for you? Can die meh?!?! Im really hate the word of FAKE!!! I hate how do you pretend to me! Im very feel disappointed on you! Im really dont like to listen our things from others mouth... yea, I dont mind if you keep the things for yourself, but I mind that there's misunderstanding between us... May be you scare I'll angry or sad, but I'll feel more angry, sad and disappointed when Im know not from you! of course I'll angry or sad when you telling me, but I'll feel more happy than all feeling if you direct to tell in front of me what's wrong or what had I done bad to you... you just let me feeling that you are not respect me at all !
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