She's improving...

Just come back from Nick's house with my babe, first time to take off my fringe and some curly hair, a new look for Janet~ haha! yea, Im know look more mature now, but I like it! so What?! I feel nice then no any problem already. Im trying to change myself now... improving myself... cause I've no good enough, no pretty enough no rational enough when facing some problems and no mature enough, so Im changing now...to become more good, get more 内涵, more mature, not only my look, with my mind too... Im trying everyday now...

Last week I went to secondary school with my old friends, then go visit my lovely teachers... all teacher are saying who had changed, or look not same like before, when my turn, teacher said: "Janet is never change, the hair, the body, the look......" sweat, may be I also let them "kek tiok", so I've the thinking to change my look... but for my attitude, not because of them, just because of myself.

Im felt that I need to improve my myself and my mind... become more mature, more rational when face on those stupid problems. Just like SY said, I need to improve my 内涵 also. No one is really good enough, everyone also need to improve too...

I need to improve what had failed for... why he/she leave me, why did he/she dont like or hate me... this's all I need to improve, I need to become more mature, more pretty than her, more good than others... I want others ＂跌破眼镜＂on me, I want others feel regret how they thinking of me, I want others feel regret for left me before, I want others take back how they hate me or dont like me before!

So, she's trying to improve herself and days come and go... + U~

A mountain is higher than a mountain

If you think that Im the person how are you thinking of, then just go ahead! I used to admit so many times that I dont like to explain so much and say so much, may be Im lazy, and I dont care others how they thinking of me, I'll just let them go and think what they like. I dont care!
It's more than hundred times that I said I dont like to say so much and explain so much... but IF u really come in front of me and direct to ask me, OF COURSE I'll tell you for all what you want to know about! Everytimes also like that, because you didn't come to ask me directly, then just keeping to yourself and think it with yourself, never ask the happen, only think by yourself, that's why there's so much misunderstand!!! After that act like nothing happened, and pretend to be so good with me again, then Im the one dont know what's wrong and what's going on when you beh syok and dont like me! Everytimes I also heard the things from others! why dont you just be more direct? Is it very hard like ask you go to jump into sea for you? Can die meh?!?! Im really hate the word of FAKE!!! I hate how do you pretend to me! Im very feel disappointed on you! Im really dont like to listen our things from others mouth... yea, I dont mind if you keep the things for yourself, but I mind that there's misunderstanding between us... May be you scare I'll angry or sad, but I'll feel more angry, sad and disappointed when Im know not from you! of course I'll angry or sad when you telling me, but I'll feel more happy than all feeling if you direct to tell in front of me what's wrong or what had I done bad to you... you just let me feeling that you are not respect me at all !

人心

女生的心就好比梨，外甜內酸，
吃的人不知道梨的心是酸的，
因为吃到最后就把心给扔了，
所以男生从来不懂女生的心。

男生就好比洋葱，想要看到男生的心就需要一层一层的去剥，
但是你在剥的过程中会不断的流泪，
剥到最后才知道洋葱没心！

Short Story

有两个分手多年的情侣，某一天他们在某个地方不期而遇……

男：你好吗？
女：我很好。
男：他好吗？
女：他很好。

女：你好吗？
男：我很好。
女：她好吗？
男：她刚告诉我她很好。

It's a very short story, not all the people can really understand the meaning of this story, It's so deep and a lots of meaning in this story even it's so short. =)

Only The Heaven Knows

"HEAVEN KNOWS"

she's always on my mind
from the time i wake up,
till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

and though she's so far away,
it just keeps getting stronger
everyday
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on
so tell me, where do i start
'cause it's breakin' my heart
don't wanna let her go

maybe my love will
come back someday
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts
will find a way
but only heaven knows
and all i can do
is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me
that if you really love her,
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in time
i'll know she's mine
but tell me, where do i start
'cause it's breakin' my heart
don't wanna let her go

why i live in despair
'cause wide awake or dreamin'
i know she's never there
and all the time i act so brave,
i'm shakin' inside
why does it hurt me so?

Gentleman 的定义

一个gentleman不是说出门时帮你交付所有费用才称得上gentleman。
一个gentleman不是完全从外表就可以辨识的。
而是发自内心，不是在他人面前假假做些动作，那称为伪君子，做作!
就像吃东西时，他知道你夹不到，他会帮你夹菜。或是在类似日本餐厅和包装着塑胶袋的筷子，他会帮你开好筷子、setting好你的餐具... ...等等。在种种的小细节上，而不是像某些伪君子。当伪君子第一次遇见和认识女生时，他想要保持好印象给某些女性，所以在刚开始接触时，会表现得很gentleman, 当时间久了，其他pattern都跑出来料咯~哈哈！

忠诚与祝福

苏格拉底：“孩子，为什么悲伤？”
失恋者：“我失恋了。”
苏格拉底：“哦，这很正常。如果失恋了没有悲伤，恋爱大概也就没有什么味道了。可是，年轻人，我怎么发现你对失恋的投入甚至比你对恋爱的投入还要倾心呢？”
失恋者：“到手的葡萄给丢了，这份遗憾，这份失落，您非个中人，怎知其中的酸楚啊。”
苏格拉底：“丢了就丢了，何不继续向前走去，鲜美的葡萄还有很多。”
失恋者：“我要等到海枯石烂，直到她回心转意向我走来。”
苏格拉底：“但这一天也许永远不会到来。”
失恋者：“那我就用自杀来表示我的诚心。”
苏格拉底：“如果这样，你不但失去了你的恋人，同时还失去了你自己，你会蒙受双倍的损失。”
失恋者：“您说我该怎么办？我真的很爱她。”
苏格拉底：“真的很爱她？那你当然希望你所爱的人幸福？”
失恋者：“那是自然。”
苏格拉底：“如果她认为离开你是一种幸福呢？”
失恋者：“不会的！她曾经跟我说，只有跟我在一起的时候，她才感到幸福！”
苏格拉底：“那是曾经，是过去，可她现在并不这么认为。”
失恋者：“这就是说，她一直在骗我？”
苏格拉底：“不，她一直对你很忠诚的了。当她爱你的时候，她和你在一起，现在她不爱你，她就离去了，世界上再也没有比这更大的忠诚。如果她不再爱你，却要装着对你很有感情，甚至跟你结婚、生子，那才是真正的欺骗呢。”
失恋者：“可是，她现在不爱我了，我却还苦苦地爱着她，这是多么不公平啊！”
苏格拉底：“的确不公平，我是说你对所爱的那个人不公平。本来，爱她是你的权利，但爱不爱你则是她的权利，而你想在自己行使权利的时候剥夺别人行使权利的自由，这是何等的不公平！”
失恋者：“依您的说法，这一切倒成了我的错？”
苏格拉底：“是的，从一开始你就犯错。如果你能给她带来幸福，她是不会从你的生活中离开的，要知道，没有人会逃避幸福。”
失恋者：“可她连机会都不给我，您说可恶不可恶？”
苏格拉底：“当然可恶。好在你现在已经摆脱了这个可恶的人，你应该感到高兴，孩子。”
失恋者：“高兴？怎么可能呢，不过怎么说，我是被人给抛弃了。”
苏格拉底：“时间会抚平你心灵的创伤。”
失恋者：“但愿我也有这一天，可我第一步应该从哪里做起呢？”
苏格拉底：“去感谢那个抛弃你的人，为她祝福。”
失恋者：“为什么？”
苏格拉底：“因为她给了你忠诚，给了你寻找幸福的新的机会。”

Dude, Im know there's no one can replace her in ur heart... even the time have passed for long long time ago... everyone also know how to say, but when the things is happening, here's no one can really settle it as well. I'll try my best to do what had I promise, even it's very hard for me, but I'll try my best and wish the god will give me sometimes. I think I can done it as good as I can! so we just + U together ok?
Thanks for ur accompany and giving a lots of idea and suggestion when I dont know how... Im really super and double stupid enough, cause Im always doing the stupid things even it's so ^%*$&%$$%@&... thanks for ur accompany when my mood is very bad. And thanks for you, cause you will always standing by me~ =)
Im so glad that have a friend like you, and thank you for sharing ur experience to me and sharing urs things with me too. cheer~

Happy Bunny Year~

Happy Bunny Year to all...

let u guys see my baby's photos...

my lovely, cutest and pretty niece~

only 2 years old... ...

others will update later on...lazy and tired now...

those pic take when 1st day of CNY~ ^^