放下。放弃。放开。放了自己

什么也不用想，放过我的脑袋。

什么也不要听，放过我的耳朵。

什么也不要看，放过我的眼睛。

什么也不要在乎，放过我的心。

不是我不想面对，只是想要放过我自己。

就饶了我自己，只要一下下就好。

只想离开这里，一个人的行程，

到哪都好，就一个人……

全中！感情專一人的特徵

1、自己走路會很快

2、喜歡黑夜，習慣晚睡

3、隱藏心事，喜歡一個人流淚

4、喜歡有口袋的衣服，否則不知道手該放哪裡

5、習慣抱臂

6、習慣冷戰

7、喜歡窗戶，喜歡角落、習慣蜷縮

8、喜歡寫字和閱讀

9、莫名地孤單，無法抗拒的恐懼感

10、不愛說話或………

11、心事放在心底，有一個自己的世界

12、把笑掛在臉上，幻想自己是有安全感的孩子

13、習慣了沉默，在沉默中爆發或者選擇滅亡

14、習慣了懷疑，卻總是要把人往好處想

15、不相信童話，卻一直期待會有個真正懂得自己保護自己的人出現

16、喜歡懷舊，之後感到深深的寂寞和恐懼

17、不喜歡一個人逛街可又總是一個人逛街

18、一點點事就胡思亂想，想到戲劇般的嚇人

19、喜歡聽慢歌，傷感的歌

20、會很用心地記下生命中出現的每個人

21、習慣暗戀，愛上一個人會全心全意

22、坐在電腦前，不知道做什麼，卻又不想關掉它

23、覺得世界上每一個人都不可靠，但卻還是那樣地選擇相信別人

24、偶爾會有種想消失，或是想一輩子沉睡的想法

25、不喜歡等待，卻總是等待

26、經常不經意的發呆

27、習慣活在過去，喜歡懷舊

28、總會把事情想得很長久

29、不習慣一個人莫名其妙地消失在自己的生命中

30、總是覺得沒有人能把自己放在心裡疼

31、容易滿足，更容易受傷

32、喜歡傷感，甚至頹廢

33、習慣保留自己，因為只有這樣在離開的時候，心才不會痛

34、總有一種，被忽視的感覺

35、看似花心，看似膚淺，其實是在保護自己

36、付出的遠遠超過得到的

37、很固執，不懂得放棄，但一旦放棄了就絕不會回頭

38、總是說著要離開，卻一再為自己找不離開的理由

39、在別人面前笑得很開心，一個人的時候卻很漠落

40、在陌生人面前很安靜，在朋友面前胡鬧

41、玩網游只是為了打發寂寞

42、喜歡下小雨時淋雨

43.、並不是所要的太多的回報，只要一點點就可以讓我們死心塌地，可以很少，但一定要有

44、心情不好的時候，卻喜歡聽悲歌

难过了

难过了，不要告诉别人，别人永远都不可能明白在你的立场上的感受。
难过了，静静的蹲下来抱着自己，让眼泪尽情的洒落。
难过了，拿着镜子看看此刻的自己，让真实浮现眼前。
难过了，默默的将自己隐藏起来，让空虚掩盖一切。
难过了，闭眼倾听周围的声音，让自己沉浸在喧嚣中。
难过了，不必告诉别人，自己的悲伤为何要别人也承担呢。
难过了，可以假装快乐，和别人一起兴奋时就能遗忘了自己。
难过了，仍然安慰别的伤心者，你会发现自己也在受益，当局者迷而已。
难过了，听音乐，就让音乐把它带走。

有谁不曾难过，

有谁还会记得，

过去的不再重来，

又何必去苦想？

忘掉……

用微笑渲泄悲伤

I'm fine

To someone, yea, it's u... this time u didnt 对号入座, Im saying u~!

Quite a long time we never connect, I knew u're angry and dislike. I can feel from ur action. I've so much to tell u...

I was so hurt for last time, cause u never trust me, do u think that I will simply talk this to someone? I know the words are no nice at all, do u think I dont scare u will angry or dont like? because I treat u true from my deep heart, that's why I told u that... but what's the respond u gave it to me? u dont trust me and push it to me! I was so hurt seriously, as a true friend. but it's PASSED. Whatever it become, I also dont want to talk about it again... cause it's not a happy or sweet memories, I dont want to remember it.

And I just wanna mention something, now I only know all of the world, all my friends, ur friends, even my family... ALL also thinking that I'm still loving u. I dont know what to say... may be u r thinking of it too... because they think that a couple can't be friend after broke? they don't believe I'm really treat u as a best friend? somebody said I treat u too good if as a friend, but they dont know me, I'm treating all my true friends same... I just dont want they misunderstand.

If I'm still loving u, then I wont act ur GF to lie somebody last time, I hope u will understand... Im really care u as a bro, a true friend from my heart... I dont know u do or not... may be u will feeling uncomfortable... but I never think that I will lost u this friend, or this is what u want?

Our friendship just END like this? u dont want me already? I was missing u seriously... I miss you dude. May be you think that u have me as friend or not also nothing to be different... that's why u can leave?

You've been forget our promise before, we used to promise each other whatever, no matter how... our friendship won't affect by somebody, something or else... but now we did it??? I know you don't need me anymore... but all of our things can't erase from my mind, you're so mean to me, you're one of my best friend, my bro who are so important to me. But now are you going to give me up? It's sad... ='(

It's not easy to have a friendship which can more than 5 years and still so close... and we are going to reach 7th years, I dont wanna just have a 7th years friendship with u.

The world may be gonna end soon, we are getting old too, the times are getting less and less... why should we still persistent? why we still care about the face problems? The friendship between u and me is that weak like this??? 我们之间的友情都比不上那么一小点的面子？

2012。我

差不多两个月没更新部落格了。

嗨，你还好么？

这是今年的第一个文章，

不想写得太长、太悲。

不想把它给灰了。

今年正式迈向二十的我。

今年已开始，桃花就不停的我。

是开心？还是？？？

新的一年里，就在这两个月。

人缘不错的我。

那个多变化的我。

很平安的平安夜

Last night was a very safety night. I went to INTI to attend an event before go to countdown. It's a performance to singing those X'mas song with live band. It's warm when listening to the songs. Until the end of the event, we light up the candle, to pray to the Lord. I really got pray to him:" Dear Lord, it's the first time I'm pray to you, I wish that I can let the things away from my heart, from my world, from my mind... I don't want to care about it again... I don't want to get hurt again... Please~ just a wish only, please... please let it go away~ I'm pray it very hard.

Do the Lord listen to me? Did he receive my wish? Will he approve my wish? I'm not greedy, just a wish only, that's all. The only one I'd pray for damn hard.

After the event, we went to so many places, meet up so many friends... until the end all gang up at the UPR... all at the same place... half of my classmates also at there... so ngam... haha~

I'm feeling good, because last night got people protecting me at there... feel warm... can't say so much dee, SECRET. haha~

When I was a kid

Alone sitting at a shopping centre at KL, with my damn tired body in a afternoon. And looking at those kids playing at there... How cute are them... When I was a kid like them, I don't know what am I doing too... haha~

Waiting for my sis coming to this world? or maybe fighting with my sis... When I was 2 or 3 years old like them.

And I don't know what should I doing for... Also don't need to worry about so much. Don't need to learn how to become so independent... Just do what am I happy for. Just cry out easily when I feel sad or angry. Don't need to act for so strong.

入世未深

身边可以真正信任的朋友真的一个都没有了吗？在这恐怖的世界，还会有谁可以当她的避风港？她很累了，她真的害怕了。她泪了。

有谁可以给她点勇气？她真的好害怕。是她小看了这世界，是她把身边的人看得太简单了。是她看东西看得简单，是她入世未深……