当初说好的……

有谁可以告诉我到底发生了什么事情吗？难道有什么事就不能大家一起解决吗？当初说好的，难道你们都忘了吗？如果是我的错我会很愿意听，然后再去改啊。可是问题是我怎么好像直接被人判死刑似的？一开始我还以为是我想太多，原来不是……

朋友之间不是因该坦白点吗？

我觉得我好像变得有点懦弱，

我真的不想再戴回以前那一副面具了……

我好不容易才把它给丢了，我真的不想要了！

and i know i'm very useless,

i'm not that clever...

sorry...

最近不晓得怎么觉得心情有点闷……只知道时间过得好快好快……我也不懂我到底在做些什么！唉~ 我时常提醒自己：不要做那些让自己以后会觉得后悔的事，不要留下任何一些遗憾……所以，我很少会说出“后悔”这两个字。因为我知道时间不能倒流，即使能，我想我还是会做出同样的选择，因为有些事情没去试过，又怎能知道它的好或坏呢？对不对？如果一个人懂得珍惜他/她现在所拥有的，那他们就不会感到后悔了……
Final exam要到了,紧张紧张！好压力~唉~ 加油加油！

请别爱这样的女孩……

This article is very meaningful which i copy from somewhere...the girl gt a bit like me too...hehe^^


请别爱这样的女孩……

她独立，也好强，她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不愿意向别人提起。
但其实骨子里，渴望会有一个避风港，让她去依靠。但她不会承认。

她必须确定那个人是否可以承受得了这一切的，承受她的撒娇，她的无理取闹，她的倔强，她的悲观，她所有的性格……
只有这样，她才放心，可以放心去继续做自己，不会害怕有一天将要面对失去。如果没有，那么她只好继续寂寞和孤独。

她对爱情没有安全感，也不会给别人安全感。

她一定要对方先流露出对她有好感，她才会散发她的热情。她爱的永远是对她最好的那个，那个好在她心里是有个标准的，你的积分超过了那条线，她会爱上你，但大多数人没超过线之前就离开了，或者超过了之后没等她看到就离开了。

当你紧张她的异性朋友，她会一面跟你说，他只是我的谁谁谁，却一面偷偷在意你的感受……

她分手后完全不会像其他座在人面前要死要活，她会嬉笑怒闹，变得更加开朗。在听到朋友说有关他的话题时，从不刻意回避，她适当参与，淡然微笑，她的表现中会遭人怀疑这段感情的深浅，而人群中只有那些知道背后情节的人才看见她背后的眼泪和努力。

她从来不会在情人面前大声哭泣，除非她真的崩溃了。
即使你爱着她的时候，她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤。
如果你看到她的眼泪，请相信这绝不是她在博取同情，这时她这样一颗内心骄傲的女子不得已的场景。

她想对你负责，对她负责，对自己的过去和未来负责，但请你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言。她很难相信。即使她很难相信，但她还是会选择等待。

她的伤初始浓烈似酒，很快就会变为一杯水，却让水渗入生活成为点点滴滴。她选择在其中淡定，在其中沉默和内伤。

她就是这样，强势，霸道，任性……


她最有保护欲，最没有秘密。
最暴躁，最善变，最没耐心，最冲动，最耐不住寂寞却又喜欢假惺惺的让自己一个人呆着。

有时候她又充满阳光的气息，爱笑爱说话，活蹦乱跳，可爱迷人……
她很自私，只愿意与人同甘，不愿意让别人跟她共苦。
她喜欢热闹，总会成为聚会焦点，前提是她想。

她也享受孤独，会静坐在一个人的房间听着很伤感的音乐。
她也会一整天呆在房间里心情压抑低落，但第二天一早起来，又会轻轻松松的打理一切，慌慌忙忙的拽着大衣拎着包往外冲。

她习惯人前表现的很坚强，一幅大女人主义的模样。

她会想，遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人，她就一定会很安静，心甘情愿的安静下来，不烦，不闹，按时吃饭按时睡觉，按时做一切安心和他一起做的事情。

她从不轻言爱，她的爱很沉默，那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气，在她的心里有一道栅栏，那就是自尊。
如果有一个这样的女孩对你说她爱你，那就代表在她的心里你的份量胜过了她的自尊。

你不了解她，不懂她的好，就请别爱她。她会在真正爱她的人面前卸掉所有的盔甲和伪装，做个幸福的小女人，她不要求你要做什么，不会无理取闹要你陪着她，她有自己的生活，她给你空间因为她也需要空间。

她不让你给她买这买那，她会说，我啊，是大女人，不喜欢男人给我买单……但是心里却会为你私自买给她的礼物而暗自开心，因为女人觉得那是你的宠爱。

她在意的是你的心，你若真心，她必然实意。最起码你得表现的真心，能让她感觉得到。

她会经常冒出些新鲜的想法来调剂生活，她得多变有时会让你不安。

终有一天，她的敏感在你的呵护下慢慢消失不见，她的倔强被你的保护软化，她的伪装在你的面前轻易被识穿……

得到她，别骄傲，因为没人可以吃定她。
只有懂她的人，才会得到她的好。
她有时是有些迟钝的，在感情方面，但有时很敏感，因为她在乎。

如果你没勇气，没能力可以坚持爱她，就别爱她。
因为如果你离开，她的心将会永远封锁，再也不会为任何人打开……

The words which i'd high light, juzt like what i wanna say...

say no to the corner...

Dude, i know before you feel you are alone and living at the corner even you are popular and you've many friends. because you feel that there has nobody really understand you right? Don't worry dude, i'll going to try to know you, going to understand you start from NOW...ok? You can't live at the corner again, because i'm here...i won't let you live at there again...the earth is round, so there don't have any "real" corner to let u live...

You just need to remember that, you still have me...anythings you can also share with me...for sure i'll stand by you no matter how...^^

I care u baby~

Don't know why i can't sleep now...because worry about u? i think so...
Dude, i was shocked when i received the message, may be i let u misunderstanding of some things...i never think of that...u are already good accually, because this is the 1st time, rite? and of course me too...
may be i let u felt that i'm checking u when i asking u, may be i let u feel that i'm giving u a bit presure...but i'm not, it's really...u r misunderstood...
i ask u because i'm care u, and i just want to know what r u thinking about, what r u doing at there, i just want to know about urs things and i can know u well...

Dude, i just hope u won't keep all the things by urself and emo urself...u can try to tell me, for sure i'll stand by ur site and supporting u no matter how...u can share urs things with me even it's happy, sad, angry or whatever...i'll hear what u want to say...if u don't want i won't going to force u ...^^

I care u because u r my...

I need it...

Sometimes not i don't believe you...accually is i don't believe myself...sometimes don't know why i can't speak it out what i want to tell u...i'm feel shy i think... may be it's so surprised to me and i scare i will lost it what things that i have now...i know i'm thinking too much...but that's because i care it...

I've many things want to tell u and share with u...but when i looking at u or hearing urs sound...suddenly i really forgot what i want to say...argh!!!

I think i lost my confidence...so, i want to find it back to me...i need it! Janet Khor! trush urself! u can do it!!

And finnaly...i know that, I'M NOT ALONE~ ^3^v

I love my life now~ ^^

Yesterday, i had a very sweet dream...

even i just can remember a bit only,

but i know who r inside my sweet dream...

They are my INTI best friends

and someone who i lxxe...hehe^^

I very love my life now...

My life is happiness...

I've a lot of things that before i can't find...

that's my friends, my school life and my family...

One more, and the real "Janet" is come back to me too~

haha...no more fake ler...no more mask also...

wakakaz~

Again...I love my new life very much!

xD

Yipee~ holiday is come...even just a week only...but i feel it's enough for me...
hope i can enjoying my 1st mid-sem break...bcoz there have a lot of things want to do...haiz~
so i will very busy ...busy for my 3 assignment, my PET test...and my undang test...ptptn loan...argh!!!
too many things are waiting for me...can find some1 to help me or not? haiz~

Yesterday nite i was received a bad news...and this things will bring a lot of trouble for me and xiao pei pei...argh!!! she and me had ald escape from "it", we never think about that we'll involve into "it" again...I don't want it will happen to me again and again...but what can i do? I really hate "it" very much! I hate peoples who are 心机重......i think i need to pray, pray for us...haiz~i can't involve into "it" again liao!!

And thanks a lot to my friends who are supporting me...and stand by my side...i was so touch when u said u all will always support me and ask me don't go to chap siao "it"...and thanks to the god gift me a lot of truth friends...^^

Somemore, i know i always worry about many rubbish things...and from now i'll try my best to change it...i don't want going to worry about "nothings" again...before i've lost a lot of things...but now i'd ald get a lot of things again...hehe~ i've my new life, my new friends......and...XX...haha~

Miss my lao gong ( peyin) sooo much...haiz~ next week when she come back, my holiday is end...can't meet her ler...T^T
wishes she all the best for her new life in Utar...take care all my friends...^^