I need it...

Sometimes not i don't believe you...accually is i don't believe myself...sometimes don't know why i can't speak it out what i want to tell u...i'm feel shy i think... may be it's so surprised to me and i scare i will lost it what things that i have now...i know i'm thinking too much...but that's because i care it...

I've many things want to tell u and share with u...but when i looking at u or hearing urs sound...suddenly i really forgot what i want to say...argh!!!

I think i lost my confidence...so, i want to find it back to me...i need it! Janet Khor! trush urself! u can do it!!

And finnaly...i know that, I'M NOT ALONE~ ^3^v

I love my life now~ ^^

Yesterday, i had a very sweet dream...

even i just can remember a bit only,

but i know who r inside my sweet dream...

They are my INTI best friends

and someone who i lxxe...hehe^^

I very love my life now...

My life is happiness...

I've a lot of things that before i can't find...

that's my friends, my school life and my family...

One more, and the real "Janet" is come back to me too~

haha...no more fake ler...no more mask also...

wakakaz~

Again...I love my new life very much!

xD

Yipee~ holiday is come...even just a week only...but i feel it's enough for me...
hope i can enjoying my 1st mid-sem break...bcoz there have a lot of things want to do...haiz~
so i will very busy ...busy for my 3 assignment, my PET test...and my undang test...ptptn loan...argh!!!
too many things are waiting for me...can find some1 to help me or not? haiz~

Yesterday nite i was received a bad news...and this things will bring a lot of trouble for me and xiao pei pei...argh!!! she and me had ald escape from "it", we never think about that we'll involve into "it" again...I don't want it will happen to me again and again...but what can i do? I really hate "it" very much! I hate peoples who are 心机重......i think i need to pray, pray for us...haiz~i can't involve into "it" again liao!!

And thanks a lot to my friends who are supporting me...and stand by my side...i was so touch when u said u all will always support me and ask me don't go to chap siao "it"...and thanks to the god gift me a lot of truth friends...^^

Somemore, i know i always worry about many rubbish things...and from now i'll try my best to change it...i don't want going to worry about "nothings" again...before i've lost a lot of things...but now i'd ald get a lot of things again...hehe~ i've my new life, my new friends......and...XX...haha~

Miss my lao gong ( peyin) sooo much...haiz~ next week when she come back, my holiday is end...can't meet her ler...T^T
wishes she all the best for her new life in Utar...take care all my friends...^^

单身的原因

我知道有很多人都不相信我没有男朋友，不过我现在多说什么也没有用。我之前真的没有谈过恋爱，可是你们就是不信，唉~
如果我说我没有喜欢过人，那是骗人的；但我说我之前没有谈过恋爱，那是真的……
因为我不随便跟别人在一起，可能是因为有时候看见身边朋友有太多不是很好的例子吧？所以我选择了不那么轻易地去相信一个人……因为我觉得恋爱这种东西不是随便拿来玩玩的，不是你喜欢就可以随便分分合合的……所以一旦我不小心“跌了下去”，那我就会很认真地去对待“它”……而不是抱着一副玩玩的心态来对待“它”…… ^.^


ps: ah pui, c? tis time i din write anythings abt "them" liao lor...hehe^^

Will u feel that someones are/were abandon u? My answer is...yes...i felt that! or will they think that is me to abandon them? why? i ask myself...

Before they always worry and scare about that we will abandon them...but accually we didn't and won't do like that too...are they abandon me 1st, not i'm going to abandon them! I've already promised to somebody i won't abandon them and we'll be friend until the end...but it's doesn't mean that i can't go to meet new friends...it's also doesn't mean that i just can hang out with u and make best friends with u only. U can't control i going to meet new friends...if u as my best friends and really know me like Pipi and my gege, then u will know that i'll make my "FINAL" decision, that is...i "kam muan" make more new friends than better don't want to "chap siao" u...xD

And i'm not just remember our bad memories only...i knew we've a lot of sweet memories too...i always used our sweet memories to cover our sadly and hurt memories...what i want to say is: sometimes please don't just think about the bad things or the hurt things that we've done...we should always remember the sweet memories between u and me too...

PS: i didn't mean that i want to abandon u...and also didn't mean that i'll forget u after i'd a lot of new friends...i still remember what had we promised before...

i know i had change a lot...but i just take out my mask only...

part 2~~

天天过着跟朋友在一起的日子，感觉真的很不错……很自由~

还被几个人问我说到底是来这里读书还是来玩的！哈哈~

认识了这群新的朋友也让我发现以前我没有注意到的事情……也改变了我以前的想法与性格等……变得更直率、讲话更直接……那么，到底是好还是坏呢？唉~不懂~

我不是要拿以前的他们和现在的他们用来比较……只是我真的觉得这俩之间差别真的超大的！还是说是因为他们以前没有对我好过像他们酱？他们只会自私的在意自己，似乎好像没有试过站在别人立场想过！我真的很不想我会把你们讲成酱的！是你们逼我的！

至某人：我知道那天我在“非死不可” 讲的话伤到你……不过我也是把我心里的话给说出来而已……也不算说不是故意的……因为我觉得我应该没有必要再看你们的脸色，再忍受你们的脾气而过我的生活了！我也是个有脾气的人！不是好欺负的！试问下酱久以来我有没有真正的在你们面前发过一次脾气？！有没有扳着一副黑脸给你们受过？

我不发脾气，不代表我没有脾气，而是我把你们当成好朋友……

我不扳黑脸，不代表我不会扳，而是我不想让你们受我的气……

因为我知道那真的很不好受！可是！每个人也会有他的极限！包括我！

my new sch life...part 1

Long time ago didn't update my blog lor...i've many things want to write...but, when i open this web site, when i start to write...the lazy is coming...haha...



This week i'd already started my new school life...i've met a lot of new friends...even all of th things are very strange, but i've try to settle in with it...hehe~



And i've a new gang of my friends who are yi yun, jen nie, ching ying, min how, dimitrix, you jin, jebez and so on...wakakaz~ and my new roomate too...wen thong...



I'm very happy that can meet all of you...^^

u hurt me so much!

It's not i want or don't want
it's our problems are not yet settle...
because i don't want leave any regret between me and you
I know somethings are just mistake

but i just have no a chance to explain to you

and you also keep far away from me...

it's also a reason that you hurt me so much...

but anyways, i'll let you know the truth!

or...you really don't want meet or see me again?

My EXIST just is a joke for you in your life?

if it's the truth that you thinking about,

then i will accept it ! I'm speechless!!!

Accually, as a friends, it's no need to take any conditions to prove our friendship !